No Regrets

The title to this post may seem strange, but hear me out! I am not saying that i am happy with myself for having an eating disorder, being a complete bi*ch to my family, almost killing myself and destroying my relationship...HOWEVER it has taught me so much about myself, food, diet and life in general! I have also met so many incredible people along the way, people who have gone through/ going through eating disorders themselves but have still managed to support and guide me through my worst days, i honestly couldn't have done it without them, and in return they have told me that having conversations with me has helped them too, which makes me feel so much stronger and better about myself :D I honestly think a big part of recovery is regaining confidence again, you need to be very confident in yourself to be able to be confident in your new body.
I have recently come across a new friend (woop!) and she too has suffered from anorexia, she has a great blog (link here > http://misswonderfulhere.wordpress.com/) which is very similar to mine, in that it talks about her day to day life wit recovery and good ol' chit chat too! I was sooo pleased and proud to read her post about the gorgeous galaxy cookie crumble, she took my advice and bought her favourite chocolate bar - a HUGE step, especially to those who forbid themselves chocolate all together! Well done to her for taking that step forward!! I must admit i too have a couple of ripples stashed away in my room waiting to be eaten, i deprived mself from chocolate for so lon i have got used to not eating it, and don't crave it very often, i'm much more of a savoury person (hide the cheese!) but i love that they are always there if i want them hehe!
I love meeting and talking to new people and being so open about what i and they have been through, so in that respect i have no regrets :)
 

What will save YOU?

There are many things that can be generalised about anorexia and people who suffer from an ED, but I think the reasons behind why it started etc are very individual to each and every one of us, which is why I also think ways of recovering are different for each o us too! I have found that my way of dealing with it is simply seeing how much better my life is when I eat, I'm much more sociable and to be honest, much nicer to be around! I read this article a while ago and wanted to share it with you, it's about a woman who discovered her own personal cure for anorexia was making cupcakes :) and by soon this, she beat her fears of food, but more importantly, broke her fear of eating it! Recovery is never simple black and White, but I think once you have found the thing that drives you forwards, it gets a whole lot easier! Maybe make some cupcakes today? See how it affects you!!
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/home/you/article-1316523/This-life-Nicola-Hobbs-passion-helped-recover.html