My Last Post, Good luck everyone xxx

Hello :) sorry i haven't been on in a while, but i've been very busy! I was wondering if anyone had any comments or views on my blog, if there's anything that has actually helped, or if i have given any sort of inspiration at all, i do feel that my blog is coming to an end because i feel so separated from my previous way of eating, therefore i feel its unfair for me to say what i eat now and expect someone in recovery to be able to relate to it since i understand it could be difficult to tackle it all! haha but i suppose thats a good thing (for me) isn't it? I always stand by the fact that anyone who wants advice or help can email me anytime because i've not forgotten by any means what i was like, and i will try to help as much as i can, but i really feel i've done it I'VE FINALLY RECOVERED. And i EVEN think i've discovered my own trigger, fear of being independent...that thought scared me so much all i wanted was to be little again, cared for and for everyone to worry (subconsciously) but i'm ready now, ready for the big bad world and i'm aware that eating badly won't help anything! I would like to thank anyone who followed my recovery journey along the way, and although i always tried to stay positive it was difficult at times, i feel like i've come out the other side a wiser and more mature woman, no longer a little girl moth physically and mentally :) thank you for all your support along the way, i wish everyone all the best..i really hope someone gets something out of my story

Goodbye!! :'(

Start weight = 6st 5
End Weight = 9 st :)

What is the ultimate body type?

I was looking through some blogs recently and found this page, > http://thestrengthathlete.blogspot.co.uk/2011/07/heres-to-you-skinny-fat-bitches.html
I think it shows what kind of body we all want to achieve (bottom picture) but like he said, that takes a lot of dedication. My point is what many of us THINK we have to do to achieve it is all wrong. If you don't eat, you will looK like the second picture,and i don't know about you but i would rather be one of the bottom two, take a look! xxx

No Aspartame Week - outcome

I always aim to be 100% honest, and sometimes to be as helpful as i can i need tell you EVERYTHING. - so one problem i always seemed to have was going to the toilet ALL THE TIME it was like my bladder got twice as small?! however, the week i have given up ALL sweeteners that has stopped, so have the headaches i always ignored, the eye pain, the bloated stomach, flatulence (lol) ringing in my ears, earache, tiredness, aches in my muscles.....Isn't that scary?! all of these thing have vanished within ONE WEEK of giving up aspartame, i looked up the symptoms of aspartame poisoning and i had all of the short term ones, and if they were real then why not the long term ones? such as memory loss, blindness, and cancer. How this product is still legal i have no idea, i literally feel like a new person, something really should be done to tackle this, we are poisoning ourselves without realizing it, i highly suggest you give up the diet coke, and if you must have a low calorie sweetener try truvia, its a sweetener made from the all natural ingredient stevia,
I cannot express how dangerous i think aspartame actually is, if you don't believe me just try avoiding it for a day or 2, especially if your an avid user you will notice an extreme difference

Starting from tomorrow NO artificial sweetners

Over the past year I must have gone over the recommended limit every day, even though I don't really think about he calories anymore. I still buy diet coke etc out of habit. Haven't had regular unless I was drinking and didn't notice! ;) however I have heard many bad things associated with these sweetners. So starting from tomorrow I'm having zilch. Nothing. Cold turkey. Bring on the sugar rush ;) I'll let you know how it goes a week from now x

Flat Stomach Experiment! Incredible outcome!

Ever since i started dieting, my stomach has become very prone to being bloated and oddly enough, was much worse when i ate less? But i have done a little experiment that has produced pretty amazing results!
Even now i still think twice about full fat yogurts, i think why not just have 2 low fat ones? Just the same calories, more yogurt! But thats until i discovered,.....Morrisons Active Yogurts... :-O SO TASTY, no yogurt will ever be the same!! You don't get any of that acidity which yogurt usually has, and they are creamy without being too rich. But my point is, i ate a pit every day last week and by sunday my stomach looked the best its ever looked!! Simply because of no bloating and i just felt good and 'un-sloshy' haha...sooo then this week i tried all low fat yogurts, went straight back to feeling bloated and uncomfortable....
From now on it's full fat yogurt for me!! I think they are about 130 calories a pot but i'm not 100% might be wrong on about 5 calories somewhere.....but the flavours are just gorgeous too! strawberry and raspberry or a more exotic peach and mango and pineapple, logan fruit (no idea either) and lime....thats my favorite one ;) plus because their morrisons own brand their pretty cheap! In dark green yogurt pots, the best i have ever had! xxx flat tums all round! xxx

You know what the scary thing is?....(It's not what you think)

When i made the decision last year to recover, the first thing i thought was oh my lord...i'm going to get HUGE, they will make me look like i did before and all my hard work will have gone to waste. Now when i look at what i thought back then, it just goes to show how far my thoughts had gone wrong :-/ how on earth is starving yourself to death 'hard work'? Hard work should produce results that help you, not kill you.
The scary thought to me then was that i was going to get fat. I was so petrified of it i sometimes got into real panic attacks, but now i realize you feel so RELIEVED when you actually have gained the weight and realize its all okay! :D you look much better, you have time for others and your goals in life.

Now i see the scariest part is how close i was to missing out on university, going out with my friends, spending time with my family....life. Imagine existing as a shell without an inside, isn't that god. damn. scary?! I certainly thought so, keep going my friends. I sure will :) xxxx

How to diet without restricting?

I have thought about this A LOT...im getting to the stage now where im perfectly happy with my body, my bmi is healthy again and i feel like i look great! (my bums back too ;p which means i can wear jeans woo!) but what happens later on in life, when i may start to put on excess weight that i don't want? I know i won't restrict again, i promised my family i would never do that to them.
SO...how do you do it without restricting? Well...excercise is pretty essential i have to say, sorry! and so are GOOD fats, such as fats from nuts, and avacados. I have done well on, granola for breakfast, snacks are apples and tangerines..or carrot sticks and hummous...then lunch is a sweet potato and feta cheese salad or tuna salad, or bagel with low fat cream cheese! :) then my dinner...and maybe a latte!!
Give it a go!!
xxx

1st ANNIVERSARY! :)

It has been exactly one year since the start of my recovery :) it is beyond incredible how far I've gotten?! Can't even imagine being how I was last year, I also can't believe how much of my life I have allowed to be wasted by anorexia..I'm going to celebrate with a slice of cake I think! Or maybe 2 ;p who the hell cares anyway? All that matters now is life is more important than anything...being anorexic is not having a life, it's simply an existence.

Medical reason you were struck down with anorexia - discovered!!

Hello all! Very sorry I have been away for a while, exams and what not! So I took a break from revision tonight and watched 'Kate Thornton - anorexia my secret past' and 1. Found her story incredibly similar to my own, she also had a quick development, incredibly drastic weight loss, and quick recovery...but one thing I found very well..relieving on the programme was when she visited a medical centre to look at medical evidence for anorexia.

She took a test, where her brain activity was monitored and they looked at anxiety etc. and amazingly it turns out its something to do with Neuro transmitters. Some of us a preposition ed to have anorexia. It's just a matter of something triggering it off! It actaully makes sense, think how many people can diet but not develop anorexia? Whilst some of us can never imagine dieting in the way others do...there it is people science backs it up! Now the good news is our recovered anorexic narrator kate Thorntons brain was now completely normal..through experience, environment and being determined enough, you can change the way you are...but again the point I have always made is proven. Only you can do this, but trust me we all can. It is backed up by SCIENCE! :) p.s. if you want to watch the program I watched it on channel 5, sure it will be on their catch up site!! Xxx

Happy New Year...without the typical after christmas diet *sigh*

Had 5 whole quality streets this christmas? Even allowed yourself 3 maybe 4 sprouts?! Weight watchers allleerrtt!! What a load of rubbish. You only eat more over the holidays if you choose to, these weight loss adverts are not aimed at everyone FIRST RULE!!! They are aimed at people who need to lose weight to be healthy, not to be our societys view of 'thin' and 'healthy'
This was one of my main issues,,, i believed i HAD to diet because it was considered 'normal' and the thing to do. We are told burgers are evil and salads are great, but if you had a veggie burger compared to a ceaser salad full of bacon, cheese and dressing and you enjoy the burger more whats the difference?
I'll tell ya, your mind set. You feel bad that you had that burger instead of the salad because society says eating that will make you blow up like a balloon. The reality is, it wont. As long as you eat in moderation and include lots of fresh and seasonal food in your diet, you cant go wrong really! If you are dangerously overweight i would advise cutting down on sugary foods and do more excersise simple!!
Have a happy 2012 everyone and please enjoy it, and dont punish yourself for that extra bit of chocolate cake...lets make this year a year for recovery! xxxxxxxxxxx