Helloo all :) firstly want to say thank you to anyone who follows or even glances at this blog, i didn't expect ANYONE to look or pay attention to it lol, but the stats show that different people from all over the world are looking :D obviousily not good that so many are having eating disorders, but hopefully everyone looking is at least considering recovery?
Anyway, i have had a lot of support from so many of you, and it makes me feel so much stronger knowing you lot are backing me! :) I have gained more weight, but i actually don't know how much because i have made the descision to not weigh myself...it's not about that for me anymore, i will feel upset if the scales evidently go up, but thats because society has drummed it into our brains that gaining weight is ALWAYS a bad thing, but for me it's really not. By doing this i feel much more comfortable in my own skin, and helps me concerntrate on the mental side of things, which is muchmore important to deal with.
I have beaten so many of my own little 'rules' and i get 'better' everyday, eg- used to limit myself to 2 peices of fruit a day, now it's as many as i like, i now drink fruit juice and chocolate is finally back on the menu :)
I just hope that anyone considering/starting/goin through recovery knows that there is a way out of this, i swear recovery is like a tunnel, it looks so dark and long but once you start and get going the light at the end gets bigger and bigger....soon you will walk into it, just takes a little time and dedication xxxxxx
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