Seeing the Therapist..

Hello all! Well as some of you may know, at the beginning of my recovery i was 'recommended' to a psychologist, who was a HORRIBLE man who must have been going through a rough time in his personal life because he was letting out all his aggression on me...he. was. horrible.
Now i'm not saying DONT go to a therapist, but for me personally i felt he was holding me back and by 'addressing' my problems made me feel awful about myself and made me want to restrict all over again, he was ctually creating 'problems' but anyhoo, i dropped him ages ago and have been gaining very well ever since!
Just to prepare you, the therapist may not be what you expect, he wont be a nice old small bloke with glasses who is going to listen to all your problems and speak softly and talk through ways in which you can improve...he might, but then he might be like mine...EVIL MARTIN.

He looked me up and down with disgust and then fired questions at me one after the other like 'why are you doing this to yourself' and 'your going to die if you do this for another week, what would your family think?' and 'are your parents divorced?' It was worse than opening up to my mum and dad about it! He was an awful man and he didn't help me at all, (but as always there's a big) HOWEVER i'm happy i went, because it made me stand up for myself, the same way i had to stand up againt anorexia, i basically told him to go f**k himself and i could do it on my own, im not sure how much of doing that gave me the strength to do it, i know i wanted to prove the bast**d wrong, but remember the only person your really recovering for is yourself, only YOU will know if you are recovered or not, no scale, therapist or doctor can tell you your recovered, do it in your own time and pace and i promise you will get there xxxxxxxxxx
< martin the arseface. lol :P