Ever since January my relationship with food has been good. Good for a recovering anorexic anyway :-/ I feel like i have gone through 3 stages in my life with food, the first was i just eat what i want, when i want without thinking about it, the second was don't eat anything. It will make you fat, but now i think i have developed the best relationship with food than i have ever had, now i eat well, nothings 'off limits' but don't binge eat either, i eat when i'm hungry and eat what i'm given, but more importantly, i enjoy food now and appriciate it, because i know what it's like to deprive myself of it.
I always said to myself, 'I wish i could just go back to how i was before, when i just didn't care.' I still feel like that occasionally, because sometimes i do struggle when faced with an extremly high calorie dish, but actually i didn't enjoy food that much before, i just ate it because it was there, now i feel happier with who i am and my approach to everything.
It's just like that saying, things have to get worse before they get better, anorexia being my worst possible low, and recovery being the ultimate high!
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